wild and free, who is she
I'm considering creating again and thinking about what might pique my interest. I don't have a great urge to create mindlessly right now; therefore, definitely thinking more in the realm of intention. Painting feels very challenging but maybe something more outrightly expressive (?). I'll think about it.
I also really want to go to the library and find a book that's been long awaiting on my "to read" list. I have countless options and even some series, I think. Upon consideration, I'm interested in "The Invisible Life of Addie Maroo" by V E Schwabb. It's a fantasy about a woman who makes a bargain to live forever but is forgotten by everyone she meets, and this was recommended to me by my coworker Cayla, so that could also be a fun thing to talk about with her!!
I don't know. Restarting is tough. I've really been enjoying walking recently. Really, really long, hot walks and just observing everyone that passes by. I like to think about what their life looks like and remember that everyone has gone through hard things so sometimes I even imagine the challenges they may have faced. It's a bit cynical but it creates a sense of bond with anyone I pass, I guess. is this normal ha ha
It's funny to me that summer can be so energetic and happy and spirit filled but also so lonely and abysmal. The bright weather and hot sunshine are almost just a reminder of the detriment within my silly life. UGHHHH
At least I'm trying!! teehee i'm going CRAZY