Day 29
I don't have much of a title for this blog post and I've also been on a bit of a blogging / creative hiatus. Something detrimental happened once I returned home from my trip and it has really impacted my motivation / energy levels. I have a goal of cleaning something tomorrow, whether that be the floors, my bedroom, the dining room, etc., it doesn't matter. The floors would be nice, though.
I painted my nails yesterday and that was fun and creative but I feel all I've been able to muster majority of the time is lying in bed and mentally checking out. I don't have many expectations for myself and in fact, I haven't even been considering expectations.
Work has been enough of a feat for me but I have been enjoying seeing coworkers and friends to find some emotional connection and create more mental wellbeing. I don't want to bake or cook or paint or write or crochet or clean. If it's a nice day tomorrow, I could attempt to plant the sunflower seeds we got. I've had a terrible memory lately, though, so I'm not sure the likelihood of remembering that.
I wanted to update my blog to have some recollection of this period in my life because I am struggling and I think I struggle more when thinking about struggling so I just don't... I just don't really think about much at all.
I just thought about my friend's birthday and painting her a picture but we'll see what becomes of that.